Senseless violence. Senseless police violence. Senseless police violence toward a black man.
Another senseless murder of a black man at the hands of a police officer.
I have been trying to come to terms with this ever since the news hit. I did not personally know the man who was killed, but I do know him... we all do, at least those of us who are aware of the historical murdering and police brutality of black men in this country. On the heels of the murder of Sean Bell, who was unarmed at the time he was shot 41 times in New York by police, Oscar Grant of Hayward, CA has joined the list of victims. Like Sean, Oscar leaves behind the woman that he had hoped to marry and their 4 year old daughter. Everyone is trying to figure out why and how this could happen. Again!
If the crime itself is not horrible enough, the sequence of events leading up to Oscar's death have been in heavy rotation across the tv screen. Yes, this time the whole thing was caught on video. Several videos from several angles shot by hand held cameras and cell phones. Showing a handcuffed Oscar being held to the ground by a couple of officers, one of which held his knee on Oscar's head, and a short time later the other drawing his weapon like he was at a showdown in the old West firing a shot into Oscar's back. Although the evidence is there. Murder in plain sight. Officials did not question, arrest or anything else, the officer who fired the fatal shot. They instead are asking the public not to "create stories to go along with what they have seen on tape", while allowing the officer to seek refuge under his lawyer. He hasn't been asked what happened. Why he drew his weapon when there was no threat to his life at the time. Why he fired that weapon into the back of an unarmed, handcuffed man. But, while Oscar Grant is currently laying in a casket, in a church being mourned, the officer involved is under police protection because he is now receiving death threats. I will not say that he should be fearing for his life after what he's done, but I will say that the anger of those who are doing the threatening is COMPLETELY understandable. Someone has been murdered, the murder has been caught on tape, the murderer's identity is known, but he is not treated as a murderer because he carries a badge.
And people wonder why the black youth walk around with a chip on their shoulders. When will people realize that although it appears that we have made some progress, it is clearly not enough. They say we have come so far, but we still have so far to go. Well, I feel that we really haven't had that much progression because this country is still structured in a way that makes it impossible for certain people to thrive. Hell, there are systems in place that make it hard for certain people to live! You may no longer be able to hang a black man, but you sure can make the threat (Jena) and you sure as hell can shoot to kill if you are a man of the law. What message does this send to our adolescent black boys? Barack has made it so there is no longer a reason that you can't shake off the impossible and do and become whatever and whoever you want in America. As long as you don't have your black ass in the "right" neighborhood at the wrong time because the locals will call the cops on you for looking suspicious. As long as you don't move a muscle if you ever get stopped by the police because they will beat your ass and say you were resisting arrest. As long as you don't enjoy any after hours fun and catch the public metro system back home... because you might not make it back home.
I am going to provide you a few videos that you can check out to get a little more on the story or to just enlighten yourself on the many struggles that the black community is still fighting to overcome. You might not wanna have the little ones looking over your shoulder because I believe this first video does show the actual shooting of Oscar Grant. I also encourage you to check out the short documentary that Eb has over at Black Renaissance Woman. It features the reactions and fears of black adolescent boys to the murder of Sean Bell. It kind of puts this whole thing in perspective when thinking about how these kinds of events affect young boys who run the risk of meeting the same fate just because they are black.
This video gives a pure and multi-perspective response to the shooting of Oscar Grant.
If you have room to stomach one more video you can click --->here<--- to see a recent broadcast of the latest in the case. This brief broadcast identifies the officer and talks about how he has been affected by what he has done. Oh woe the hell is he!
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I was very happy to find this in my mailbox. That's Little Monkey, wearing that super cool hat of his, snoozing and snuggling the blanket that I made. He is so precious. His happiness makes me smile.
2009 Goal #1: Love Myself More/ Make Myself a Priority
How many times did I utter this phrase in 2008? How many times did I actually practice this in 2008? Let's see, I bet I can count the number of times on one hand. I was suppose to reposition myself and redirect my lifestyle in 2008. But, between devoting my time to school, Miss J and my countless worries, there is next to no time left in a day to take care of Ms. Bar B. Now that's just sad. Not making myself a priority is no longer acceptable. Its one thing to have to sacrifice for the greater good, but there comes a time when too much self-sacrifice gets to be a bit unhealthy. Well, I'm ready to do some maintenance. Ready to flip the "out of order" over to "newly renovated". Put some pep in my step and some wind up my nose. Confidence and motivation is beckoning me. Um hum, I got a little "I am the shit-ness" in my system and I think I am finally ready to start living up to my full potential.
With that said, I have taken flight. Destination? Healing.
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Thoughts and prayers go out to Janet, who's father passed away.
1. The world is much smaller than we think.
2. "I love you" was the last thing I said.
3. I wonder if I will ever be able to truly let the past be the past.
4. There is a lesson to be learned at the end of all things.
5. There's something to be said for people who self sacrifice.
6. Tucked away under the covers, on an island is where I want to be.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to finishing up the third book in the Trisha R. Thomas, Nappily series (I'll tell you more about these books after I've finished it), tomorrow my plans include paying some bills and Sunday, I want to get Miss J ready to go back to school!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I've been missing in action, I know. I haven't forgotten about you. I still love you and will be by to visit very soon. In fact, I peaked in on a few of you, but thanks to the horrible internet service on my SideKick I couldn't say hello. I'm back now and happy to be starting anew. ITS 2009!!! WHOOOHOOOO!!! This is going to be my year. My time to shine. My time to move forward, transition into a new life and continue shaking off impossibility. I'm ready.
Just like everyone else, I too, will be doing my share of goal setting for the new year. No resolutions for me because they rarely ever get revisited once they have been thought up and jotted down somewhere. "Goal" setting is a better mindset because it keeps me accountable for actually striving to achieve them. My list is still a work in progress, but ya'll know that walking that stage is definitely at the top of the list in the academic area. And the academic area is but one area where goals will be set. More on that later. For now, I wanna do something that Maria, over at Immoral Matriarch did, as a way of reflecting on her life throughout 2008. She chose to share 1 of her own blogs, from each month of the year, that she considered to be her favorite. Since I didn't start A Place of Comfort until July 2008 I will only be choosing 6 blogs instead of 12.
July - Where I Am From
August - So Addicted
September - UC Berkeley Under Siege
October - Pay Yo Fare, Fix Yo Hair
November - Rememberance
December - In Response to Your Comments, Love and Support
I can't tell you enough how happy I am to be here and to have met all of you AND to still be meeting great people. To share my life and to be invited into yours is both a privilege and a blessing. I am looking forward to making 2009 all that it can be and bringing you along for the ride.
We've come to the last Shutter Click & Chat Sunday of the year! I have had so much fun participating and I am so glad that Tameka decided to start this weekly ritual. I love taking pictures and I love seeing the amazing snap shots of others. This last task was to end with something awesome. So... here they are. Miss Thing 1 and Miss Thing 2. They came into the world 6 months ago and have been blossoming ever since. They get even more awesome each time I see them. They love to laugh and play and nibble on any little thing they can get their hands on. The perfect little dual. Thing 1 looking like daddy and Thing 2 looking like mommy and older brother. Not to mention that mohawk that Thing 2 rocks. No matter how you brush her little curls they prefer to only grow down the middle of her head and to stay spruced. As for Thing 1, her mane prefers to lay silky. Just one of the many ways that the two are both different and totally awesome.
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It all came together quite nicely. I was a little nervous about the chicken at first because I had not tried it out before the big day. You NEVER try a new recipe on your guest before you have tried it out on yourself. That way you can adjust seasonings, make substitutes or whatever before serving it up to the masses. But just how bad could a marinated chicken breast be? I was pretty familiar with the flavors before hand, prayed that they actually would all work well together, and they did. A hardy meal, made with love and received with great pleasure. A wonderful way to celebrate our last Christmas in this house.
Before we got the party started, we took the time that morning to open gifts.
Miss J had a good time reading the To:/From: tags on her gifts before tearing through the paper. After discovering her new jeans she didn't waist any time calling her aunt and thanking her.
Then, once my grandparents arrived she opened the gifts from them so that she could thank them in person.
You can never go wrong with Hanna Montana cowboy boots! When it comes to Miss J, you can never go wrong with Hanna Montana anything. She was eager to slip her tootsies in them and strut her stuff. In fact, she strutted her stuff in those boots for the rest of the night.
I hope that you found yourself all wrapped up in a happy holiday celebration that yielded lots of smiles and lots of love.
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1. I must take at least one trip to Africa before I die.
2. You can't stop the music.
3. I wish I never had to buy high priced textbooks again.
4. Education has helped me change my life.
5. I know the song Twinkle Twinkle Little Star by heart :).
6. If I weren't so afraid, I would relocate to another state after graduation.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to enjoying a little "me" time since Miss J is spending the night with grandma, tomorrow my plans include sleeping in and Sunday, I want to turn back the clock to a pre-Christmas kitchen!
Hoping all of your hard work pays off and all of those plans unfold beautifully as we all prepare to celebrate the holidays in our own special ways. I am looking forward to welcoming my loved ones and gathering around good food and good times.
I wish you all a happy holidays and I am looking forward to sharing the memories with you when we all return to the blogosphere.
Not that I even want to think about Him or continue this debate, I am delighted that he will be but a distance memory after tomorrow. I just merely wanna bring attention to the fact that difference and acceptance is really a wonderful thing. The flow of opinions, traditions, and practices are endless, therefore its good to keep in mind that there is never just one way of doing anything... and that just because you enjoy your way, that every other way doesn't happen to be the wrong way.
That's all... a special thanks to the Immoral Matriarch for being "her" beautiful and honest self.