Remember when I talked about wanting to switch things up over here? Well, my name is approaching the top of the waiting list and I'm excited. I was fortunate enough to be referred to a very generous designer. Louise, of Adori Graphics, does some mighty cute and creative work, and in her spare-spare time, she even does free blog makeovers. Taking into account those of us who blog for therapy and/or for charities, Louise does, what she calls, Community Spirit and Write From The Heart Makeovers. I am looking forward to sharing a new space with all of you very soon. Along with the new design will also come a new name. Don't worry though, I'll let you know before the change so you don't think I just up and left you =).

In other news...

I got a couple of call backs from a couple of temp agencies. I have been unable to touch bases with the first of the two, so it was nice to have gotten the call from the second. I did a little research, and based on the description of the position on their website, it looks interesting. I wont really know just how interesting until I have talked with the agency, which I am planning to do come daylight. I am hoping that something comes through soon. Time is a little of the essence, and I need to start making some major moves very soon.

On a lighter note...

I completely enjoyed my birthday week. It was a real pick-me-up to the lows that I have been stuck in. Not saying those lows are now highs, but I am saying that I was reaching for the sky last week! Thank God for amazing friends!

In the process of my ever shifting depression, anxiety, irritability and loneliness, I am trying to remind myself to smile. Its not always easily, but manageable when you have great people smiling back at you!

Felt a bit better today. Funny how that happens... extreme lows, washed away with a sudden high. I awoke this morning and made a decision: No worrying.

Grandma stopped by today with some "get well" goodies for me and Miss J. She then took Miss J's clothes home with her and washed them for us. I made a decision to feel no guilt or shame about having to ask her if she could wash my baby's clothes, and also made a decision to recycle mine. I can wait another week or so to be completely clean.

I picked myself up, cleaned the house, and even took Miss J out to the park. It felt great just to open my blinds today. This apartment hasn't had a healthy dose of sunshine in months. And to head outside, to be amongst other people? You know today must of been a pretty good day. Although the park is literally in our backyard, we seldom venture out. Not because Miss J doesn't like being at the park, but because I have too much anxiety most of the time to be there. I didn't even reach for my scarf. I slicked some moisturizer on my half nappy-half straight hair, threw on my earrings and hit the door. No anxiety today, so why hide from the world? The both of us, sick, barking at each other, bare armed, soaking up Vitamin D, running into old friends on the slide.

Even managed to get some light reading done, in between doing a quick combing out of Miss J's mane. We would have gotten in that much needed shampoo (8 months overdue... don't ask...anxiety, remember?) if it were not bedtime by the time we made it back from grandma's. I know better than to come near that child's head with a comb and dryer at 7pm!

There's always next weekend.