Its almost time to start anew. "To start anew." That has so many different meanings, doesn't it? For some, it means setting new goals and working toward them, yet, for others it means a complete overhaul of the self and its properties. I'm still in the process of figuring out exactly what "to start anew" should mean for me. There are definitely areas of my life that need work, and frustratingly, areas that will always be a work in progress. Nonetheless, like most everyone else, and like always, I will strive to become a better me... ironically, I think this is the area that is always a work in progress.

I know I'm not alone on that one. In the new year, I'm going to simply try harder to put myself first. Reading Denene's take on New Years Resolutions, I was reminded that as long as I stay true to myself and my beliefs, becoming a better me could be a relatively painless process, because "to start anew" really isn't about making unrealistic goals that will cause me to hate myself when I don't accomplish them, but rather, about living each day to its greatest potential and owning my worth in the midst of it all. I think I'm up for the challenge.

I found a wonderful designer to give A Place of Comfort a complete makeover. And when I say wonderful designer, I really do mean wonderful designer. Not just her skill, but her character. While she designs blogs for profit, she also designs blogs for charity, creating special spaces for people who are blogging about the work they do in their communities and for folks like me who blog for therapeutic reasons. Its a beautiful thing to care enough to give someone a custom space where they can make a difference in their own lives and the lives of others. Yes, Louise of Adori Graphics is one of a kind, and I am looking very forward to working with her in 2010. In fact, when she is done with this place, it wont even be A Place of Comfort anymore, but the new home of A Disordered Life, because that is exactly what my life is, and as part of being true to myself, its time for me to truly own that. I'm hoping to be courageous enough to integrate this and a private blog that I created this year. I'm slowly realizing that a huge part of healing is letting your demons out of the closet, so, I will inevitably kick fear in the ass and air my dirty laundry in hopes of chasing total metamorphosis, because... silence is so lame.

The rest will be determined as the year progresses. I'm just looking forward to watching my little girl flourish in the second half of 1st grade, growing in my relationship and buckling down into a career that I can be proud of... and most importantly, allowing myself space, love and recovery.