Change of Plans

So, I planned this semester out with a really clear rubric. I was suppose to take one course that would fulfill the last of my college requirements (Cal has various colleges that have their own GE requirements toward graduation), take two electives for my major, a class on moving beyond Cal, and finishing up my thesis.

Not all that bad, right? Well, no, if I had been able to get all of my readers BEFORE THE 4TH WEEK OF CLASSES and if my GE class didn't have an 18 PAGE RESEARCH PAPER due at the end and if the professor for my Women & Hip Hop class actually KNEW SOMETHING ABOUT HIP HOP!!!!

See where I'm going with this?

After paying $42 for the reader yesterday, I decided that it would be in my best interest to drop the class with the 18 pages. I mean, I don't even know what the hell I was thinking when I went ahead and remained in this class in the first place. Yes, its a class on AIDS in Sub-Saharan Africa, which in a slim way is related to my thesis. Yes, learning about AIDS would be a lot more enjoyable than tackling social theory again (which would have also satisfied the same GE requirement). But none of these things should have mattered considering the fact that I knew that I would also be devoting time to plowing through books/articles/performances/notes/revisions and I don't know what else to produce 20 pages of work. You know, the research paper that really matters. As soon as I got the syllabus I shoulda been out, but no, Ms. I Can Do It! was in full effect as always.

Perhaps all the current cold air consuming my scalp has helped to unveil my Berkeley reality.

Barbara, it would be much more productive for you to focus on completing just ONE research paper this semester, especially since you couldn't even complete just ONE last semester. You shouldn't have tried to run from theory because now you will have to spend your half your summer with it in addition to the math class... but its ok, because you were gonna have to take an additional class anyway in order to get summer financial aid. Now you don't have to wonder and worry about which additional class that will be.

And so... the journey to cross the finish line continues.

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4 comments

T.Allen

February 11, 2009 at 10:42 AM

I too suffer from impulsive invincibility-it's awful when YOU are the one pressuring yourself into the seemingly impossible. A toast to cool scalps and clarity!

Unknown

February 11, 2009 at 7:52 PM

oh damn! well, thankfully the reality of it all did kick in. definitely don't need you burning yourself out with all that paper writing.

now, the more important thing...can you get that $42 back?!? lol!

Barbara

February 12, 2009 at 12:36 AM

Yes. The fact that a research topic was due on Tuesday... and I haven't even looked at the guidelines of the assignment, let alone actually made a decision on what I'd be comparing in the first place... can we say "a big slap in the face"?

Jewelry Rockstar

February 12, 2009 at 8:38 PM

Girl when I was finished with Graduate school I took a graduate level Real estate class to keep my daughter in the University child development center, mind you I could have taken a undergraduate chorus class or something like that. Instead I took that class, stayed in there and got an F, yes and F. If I ever go back to get a doctorate I've got to explain that "my bad." I'm glad you focused in and got out of there in enough time. At least somebody was using her brain.