I just thought that maybe I could help my mind unwind if I made a stop here before retiring to bed. I think that a nice, semi long shower would work even better, but I don't even want to devote the time to it at this hour, especially since I need to be up by 7:30 in the morning or should I just say in 7 1/2 more hours!

I still haven't completely figured out why writing papers is so difficult for me. I know the information, here's the outline, I can see it all come together and for some reason I can never just sit right down at the computer, pull up a blank page on MS Word and get to typing. All I have to do is say what's in my head, I realize this, and then the anxiety kicks in. Perhaps my brain is giving out on me, perhaps its tired of analyzing and over-analyzing, perhaps its tired of acquiring knowledge and then configuring that knowledge preparing it for evacuation. One more paper down and 2 more to go, grrrr....

This is NOT my frickin' idea of summer. This isn't even my idea of what 2008 was suppose to symbolize in my life. I wont even go into that, and why the hell am I even going there anyways when I am suppose to just be unwinding my mind, you know, preparing it for rest?? Just goes to show what's lurking in my overworked mind these days, nights and early mornings.