- Today marks the conclusion of the 1st grade for Miss J. She's been really excited about her accomplishments and I've been really proud. This school year has definitely had its ups and downs, but it has ended in improvement and happiness. I'm already looking forward to her fresh start of 2nd grade, but first we're gonna try to get in some relaxation and summer fun, starting in about 2 1/2 hours.

- I'm busy at work on new Baby Squares. I have a pretty pink and a pretty lavender that will be added to the shop as soon as I can get some good pictures, also a glance at the pretty custom purple that I'm working on. Hopefully I will be busy at work on a 9-5 soon.

- I've been thinking about selfishness and selflessness. About the people in my life who are selfish and those who are selfless. And more importantly, about the people in my daughter's life who are selfish and those who are selfless. I've come to the conclusion that those who are selfish need to be eliminated. I realize that with each passing year, I grow a little less patient for people who only see themselves in the world.

Five years ago I asked two of my good friends if they would do the honors of becoming my daughter's Godparents; they accepted. It wasn't a decision that I came to lightly. I had survived middle and high school with one of these people and had known the other since elementary school, these two people knew me extremely well, and were trusted with my life, and so trusted with my daughter's. I did not ask them solely because we were good friends, but because I truly believed that these two people loved my daughter and would always be capable of expressing that love to her. For a while, it was so. Aside from our usual time spent together, they were present for birthdays and holidays. God-dad has always taken pride in his God-daughter. He has always been more than happy to be present or called on. My general issue isn't with him, but with the person who eagerly accepted the role as God-mother in my daughter's life. The same person who years later, confessed that she actually doesn't like children. The same person that made my hungry daughter wait a 45 minute car ride to eat because she didn't allow any eating in her new car, the same person who ignored an email that I sent asking her to write my daughter, her God-daughter, a letter with some well wishes for her future to commemorate her 7th birthday - and when confronted simply said "I'll pass". Yeah, that bitch. I have a huge problem with that bitch.

In no way did I ever view the roles of God-parents as "stand ins" for actual parents. But I did view God-parents as people who took a deep interest in a child and cared about his or her well being. That bitch's complete dismissal of my request was really like a slap in the face to both me and my baby... and those who send a slap in the face to my baby get more than just the "stare" or the "side eye", they get the fucking wrath. So, for now, here is my message to her...




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