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Last night, a friend and I had a conversation about sleep. Like "me-time", a good night's sleep or a restful nap seems to always be on a mother's list. Insomnia is like the new black. And not just the regular old I can't fall asleep. No. Many of us have, what I'd like to call, Self Induced Insomnia. From the minute our feet hit the ground, until the minute our children are tucked into bed, we are on the clock. We are doing what we can, in an allotted amount of time, and it is only after all is settled in the house, that we can even think about ourselves or any pressing projects that need our attention. I told my friend that I have been catching myself, sitting on the edge of the bed, admiring my daughter's ability to drop off whenever its lights out, and wake rested and ready for her day. Even on days that she'd rather stay sleeping than get ready for school, once up, she's UP. Maybe "admire" isn't the right word. I envy her. I want to be able to do that! I want to lay my head on my pillow, without twisting and turning, trying to find a comfortable position, one that will smoother my pestering thoughts and support my tired muscles. Why can't I do that? Instead, I'll sit up, laptop on, until 12... 1... 2... 3am, just because, now I can, in peace! Seems like further self sabotage, yet necessary.

I know I'm not, but I need to read you say it. Tell me I'm not the only one.

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6 comments

miss nico  
April 6, 2010 at 7:34 AM

I even try to leave my laptop in the other room so I'm not tempted to use it, yet the tossing and turning just doesn't stop. 3 hours I got last night. Not in a row :(

Barbara  
April 6, 2010 at 9:39 AM

Sigh... and so the saga continues. Perhaps, just as our children usually have a bedtime routine for settling down and settling in, us mamas also need a bedtime routine.

I say, relaxing bath/shower, a warm beverage and a good book (read: article or assigned reading for the school mamas).

Freckles  
April 6, 2010 at 11:00 PM

"He gives blessing to His beloved in sleep" (Psalm
127:2 AMP).

The Lord longs to pour out blessings on you constantly—even when you sleep! Many people today
struggle with sleeping at night. They stay awake or get poor sleep because they are constantly focused on their problems and worrying about tomorrow. But that's
not God's plan for you! He wants you to enjoy your sleep as a time of blessing and refreshing. Understand that God has His hand on your life even in the
midnight hour. He wants to speak to your heart and restore your dreams. He is taking care of those things that concern you. When you cast your cares on Him and
trust Him to work out every detail of your life, you'll be able to enjoy that sweet sleep that He has
promised. Make the decision today to enjoy the blessing of the Lord as you sleep tonight. Say a
prayer before you go to bed and cast your cares on Him. As you allow the Lord to bless and refresh you in sleep, you'll see a tremendous change in your waking
hours. You'll be more invigorated, more alert, and full of the blessing of the Lord in every area of your life! Be encouraged and get some sleep.

Shannon  
April 7, 2010 at 7:20 AM

I have gone through these periods... especially when deeply depressed. I would lose myself in blogland, zooomr or wherever else I could find "comfort"... I have now made a rule for myself... I have a bedtime and stick to it almost every night... I lay down in bed with a book and read until I fall asleep... sometimes it takes an hour, sometimes it takes 30 seconds... just depends on what i've done... also, I've started a new fitness challenge and exercise every night at 8:30 pm and it helps me to actually feel tired! Good luck, maybe some of my ideas help????

Barbara  
April 7, 2010 at 9:07 AM

I think those are some great ideas Shannon. Like the kids, we NEED to wind ourselves down. Reading is a great way to do that, and congrats on your fitness challenge!

SPIRITUAL AWAKENING  
April 7, 2010 at 12:29 PM

Yes I understand you! My daughter is asleep at 9pm faithfully every night. I get up at 5am, M-F. I know I have limited time but I end up doing all this extra stuff. My mind keeps going, body keeps moving,even after I've soaked in the tub. When I have long days of church and dance practice, mentally my mind is not tired. I decided to keep myself on a prayer schedule. So far, I've been releasing my anxieties and thoughts in prayer and when I go to sleep they are all released and I can go to sleep:)

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